I took the kids skating tonight. I was sitting there freezing my ass off. Why do skating places keep it so damn cold in there? I was seriously wearing my winter coat and gloves. I sat in my little booth by myself in tears. Not for a specific reason but I think just all the stress that is going on in my life right now. Emily cries a lot again. There is something always wrong with her. I don’t know what to do anymore. I sit and look at her and see that she is so different from the other kids her age. She is really behind in reading and other classes. I wished I had money for to get her tutors. She is a bit over weight. This being a lot of my fault. I know I don’t have the healthiest meals and snacks. I need to encourage healthiness in my family. Emily can eat at least 3 times the food I can eat in a day. I know most of the times she eats it’s because she is bored. I feel so bad when I have to tell her that she can not eat again because she is bored. I feel like I am going to give her an eating disorder in the future.
Austin last night totally showed his bi-polar side all night. I totally sat there and wondered how the hell I am just not losing my mind right now. He was so up and down with his moods all night. Today I had an interview with Ambulatory Care. It went pretty good. I was supposed to have an interview with my boss today after work but she was fifteen minutes late and the school called freaking out. Austin went outside and wouldn’t come back in. By the time I got to school he was already in class. So I will have another interview tomorrow. I just want this stuff over. I want to know if I got the job. It’s been a month with this bullshit.
Keithen is doing okay but he is really pushing my buttons. I will tell him not to do something he will still do it just to bug me. The kids have been fighting like crazy for the last couple of days. I think that I will use my vacation in the nut ward. Ha ha!!
Enough about the kids stress me out! My sister called last night and told me that she signed Travis and I up for my redneck weddings. I thought it was a totally cool idea. She got an email from them today saying that they are taping up till June something. They would keep me in mind for their 3 season. If it happens it will be so exciting. I probably wouldn’t like the idea of someone making fun of me on national TV but hell it’s worth it.
I guess I better get going. I am watching Big brother on feeds!